Friday, May 26, 2006
I'm on my way, learning every step of each day
i spent last night counselling myself haha. i wanted to talk to my mom but guess i needed to talk to myself. i don't really remember wat i talked to myself abt, but i went to sleep with a small smile, knowing i'd be ok. i know i've made many (huge, unforgiveable) mistakes these few weeks or so, but i think i've learnt much more from them. hopefully they don't repeat and hopefully i'll be able to actually learn something and remember it.
something happened on the way to heaven, but no one ever said tat it was a good or bad thing right? i'm learning to be positive, to be objective, to carry on, and to remind myself whatever has happened sure happened for a really good reason. whatever it is doesn't matter, i'm going to concentrate on being me and making sure i'm ok. i've also come to terms tat there are some things i can never understand or accept, or times when i can't be as strong or as brave as i should be but hey tats wat makes me me isn't it? otherwise, i might as well be god almighty or some saint. which i obviously am not, nor do i aspire to be one.
cos in this life as we know it, how many of us really can find true friendships or relationships tat we treasure and remember to treasure? i've been riding on this emotional rollercoaster more often than i need to but because my time here on earth isnt' up yet, i'm going to try not to give up on myself, my friends, my family either.
so for now, i'm going to live by this: that time heals all (however cliched it might seem), and tat space is wat we need. thats wat i'll need, and tats jus about all tat i can offer. Time, and space.
Smile ok? Cos the world seems so much brighter when u do.
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thinking out loud at 9:07 AM
Comments:
exactly a year ago i set out on a similar journey to find who i really am. and a year later, i realize that i am still on that journey. but the good part is, i am a year wiser, and a year older and a year stronger.
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