Friday, August 31, 2007

finally sorta finished the meetings.. sighh everyday meeting.. go back super dun feel like doing work. i realise the chickens and ducks in indo are so SKINNY (read: no meat, jiak buay bah) so the meals here are getting rather..unappetising haaa.

been sick, heng today had my voice around with me, thanks to porridge and danzen. actually if i had a choice, i dun tink i'd wanna work here in indo. too much politics, and i need to know the language.. i wonder if ppl treat us nice cos we're fr sg and work closely with the boss but some of them here really are quite nice.

actually some parts of it were fun..enjoyed a few good laughs. (and i got a few more nicknames =_='')

but i'm really looking forward to coming home. then again am i? i duno.. here u kinda jus work ur ass off, get really stoned and tired by dinner, and then the next morning grudgingly get outta bed and off for meetings. at home.. well there's lots more to tink abt.. more to..take care of as well.

kinda at a loss for words. jus tired out, esp when looking at my notebook and all the stuff i gotta do. =0(

anyway pics fr the weekend before.. womad and drinking with some of the best ppl around. wonder if the coming weekend will be as wonderful? *shrug* hope so..


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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

dear miss kong,

heartiest congratulations! you are officially sick and bogged with work. you are also the proud owner of a relatively painful sunburn (comes complete with matching brown shiny shoulders) which unfortunately does not entitle you to enjoy spa relaxation the traditional indonesian method.

however, you will get to enjoy fine indonesian cuisine though we highly do not recommend it given your current condition comprising a sore throat, moderate cough and great ease in gaining weight. we do suggest keeping to 70grains of rice per meal, 30 peanuts, some meats, no fruits or snacks with plenty of water.

we also do recommend complete rest, but we do understand that it is not possible with that neverending workload (which, according to the schedule, stretches all the way til Jan 2008). hence, we have kindly conceeded to deprive you of the comforts of your room and allow you to work from the lobby downstairs. this comes with wifi access at a special rate of S10/hr. Upon selecting a seat, you are also entitled to a drink at your own expense.

do let us know how else to assist you, we look forward to hearing from you!

sincerely,
this thing called tough luck


tmd..life really sucks..

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

i'm awake but very stoned.. feeling warm from the sun burns and achey from muscle ache and the new bruise i just acquired (nothing very new here).

i've suddenly lost the ability to pack. i'm faced with all the stuff i tink i need, harddisk, lappy, clothes, files, sweets, tissue, and the works but i'm jus left starring at them.

i tink i shld get some aloe vera gel. its funny how each time i go to indo i just happen to go and get myself burnt the weekend before (last time was sentosa with missmymy i tink). so i end up going to indo looking very red and lobster-ish complete with painful shoulders and ugly tanlines.

anyways.. the weekend has been nothing short of fantastic. =0)

headed off to womad on fri, caught really good bands (i thought asian dub foundation, mahotella queens and shooglenifty were really good.) great stuff. cept i'd really recommend wearing shorts instead of a skirt. (pics when i more free)


in fact the week has been quite a good one, and rather spanish themed.. cos i ended up doing something spanish almost everyday.. 2 classes, 2 dinners..

then of course, u gotta round things up with a big bang.. 2 in fact.. by moi. pain!! i tink hor, next time i shant be TOO happy at not falling. tink i more than made up for the previous session. then dinner with a little green thing and a tall blue thing, movie, ktv (yes i din sing), drinking, light entertainment courtesy of the little green thing, ended at 6 in the morning?

thus explains my stoned state. couldnt sleep cos i still have to pack and really duno why its taking me so long to do so.

i've lost my touch!!!!

maybe its too early.. i shld attempt again later tonight?

perhaps i shld jus go back to sleep.

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

ps: its so funny seeing the comments on my previous post. heheh so sweet of you guys to actually indulge in my bo-liao-ness. NO WONDER we're friends.. hhahaha. keep those answers coming!

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Friday, August 24, 2007

this bo liao post (yes another one) is on request from my yiyi jie jie.

prizes (prize la, i not so rich. mabbe the aforementioned maggie mee?) up for grabs for the most creative (but doesnt equal insulting ok) answer!

send in ur answers to the simple question below:



oops forgot to add.. Please submit entries by Monday, 27th Aug 2007. That will give me some entertainment while i'm away. hehehe

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Thursday, August 23, 2007

i was wondering why my skin and face look so shitty in my mirror.

shittier than usual (gasp!)


then i realised something..

i went to clean it..


voila! instant clear skin

haaa shit la i'm such a loser

hehehheheheheheeh

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Wednesday, August 22, 2007

she is sooo sweet.. can cry leh..

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as much as i like art and designing and craft and making stuff, i have this inability to express my design views to my designers. i am unable to tell them why i dont like a certain element, neither am i able to articulate exactly which direction i want them to take.

its so subjective. dont like means dont like la..

with me directing design, how can it ever be considered a creative process by the designers? and i hate going back and forth with revisions cos i know how freaking goddamn annoying it is to keep making changes. cos after a while u just cant be bothered to think and improve..'jus do and get it over with'.

and how to u communicate your already semi-unclear instructions to someone far far away who might not understand you totally and interpretes it his own way? hmmm with great difficulty and alot of patience

*ohmmmmmm*


wat exactly was i hired to do again?

anyways i'm convinced tw has the best maggie mee on earth. unless, japan proves me wrong (quick someone buy me authentic jap maggie mee, not nissin). i'm so in love with the one i had this morning (very nice!! so not going to share with anyone hehe), but i'm already hungry. bukit merah has the best beef steak rice (i swear. the best. tons of very yummy beef chunks) but i tink i shld abstain and go for something really healthy (eeks) like.. plain porridge?

half of the week almost gone.. busy busy.. spanish later, spanish dinner tom (ooo my oysters!!), womad on fri, blading on sat, then rushhhhhh to pack my stuff on sun.

sounds like tons of fun if u ask me. counting down to the weekend. cant wait to.... =0p

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

español es muy dificil!! argh!!

go into class, had to lend friend and some stranger my pens cos they never bring, discover teacher only speaking in spanish, dun understand a single word, argh!!

then ask us to converse with each other, and everyone else seems to know wats going on, even ask the teacher how about this word and that word, arghhh!!

sat next to someone who is like half a spanish expert, and kept correcting me and talking so loud i couldnt concentrate on wat the teacher was saying.. arghhhhhhhhh!!!

and..i have homework to do.. and no one to copy from hehehe

sigh. i asked for it right?

Si amiga..

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Monday, August 20, 2007

i tink i am fascinated by fire. there's a certain majesty in the way the flames dance and devour every bit it comes across, there's a certain power to destroy, and yet create.

why the heck was i playing with fire? cos 7th mth ma..time to burn hell money. which i honestly think is very unenvironmentally friendly. pollutes the air, we're literally burning away our resources and money (damn these things arent cheap anymore) etc etc. i'm sure u know.

but it also inspired a dance. yi's tribute to the dearly departed.. footwork in sync with extremely graceful hand movements.

damn funny la, this woman was throwing paper into the bin to burn so she took a forward step to throw, followed by a backstep to dodge the flames. haaaa hope her 'performance' was appreciated!

*pls grant us great wealth, huge bonuses and for the bosses to always be in good moods..if u want yi to dance longer, jus let me know ok..i'd do anything!! anything!!*

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Sunday, August 19, 2007

bo liao

THis is wat happens when u're bored. bbc has great personality tests, perfect to while away time.

SEX I.D. - Your sex i.d. profile
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6
Your overall performance
The scale below is an indication of where you fall in the male-female brain continuum. The results are based on the angles, spot the difference, 3D shapes and words tasks.

Bear in mind that your performance may be affected by many factors in addition to gender, like age and intelligence.

Your personal brain score:
Average score for MEN who've taken this survey:
Average score for WOMEN who've taken this survey:

(shit i not v feminine.. i mean.. oopsy.. *embarrassed ladylike expression*)
Your score for each task

Part 1

Angles

This task tested your ability to identify the angle of a line by matching it with its twin. This is a spatial task, which looks at how you picture space.

Your score: 16 out of 20
Average score for men: 15.1 out of 20
Average score for women: 13.3 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 13 - 17: You found this test neither hard nor easy. This suggests your brain has male and female traits when it comes to spatial ability.



Spot the difference

This task tested your ability to identify which objects changed position. You lost points, if you incorrectly identified objects.

Your score: 43%
Average score for men: 39%
Average score for women: 46%

What does your score suggest?

If you scored between 34 - 66%:
You may have a balanced female-male brain.




Part 2

Hands


You said your right thumb was on top when you clasped your hands together.

Right thumb on top: This suggests the left half of your brain is dominant. Many studies have tried to establish whether there is a relationship between handedness and brain dominance. Some scientists believe that if you are left brain dominant, you would be more verbal and analytical.



Part 3

Emotions and Systems

This task looked at whether you prefer to empathise or systemise.

Empathising

Your empathy score is: 14 out of 20
Average score for men: 7.9 out of 20
Average score for women: 10.6 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

Empathisers are better at accurately judging other people's emotions and responding appropriately. If you scored 15 and above, you are very empathic and would be an ideal person to comfort people in a time of crisis. Women in general are better at empathising.


Systemising

Your systemising score is: 6 out of 20
Average score for men: 12.5 out of 20
Average score for women: 8.0 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

Systemisers prefer to investigate how systems work. A system can be a road map, flat pack furniture, or a mathematical equation – anything that follows a set of rules. A score of 15 and above suggests you're good at analysing or building systems. Men in general are better at systemising.

Scientists are keen to learn more about people who score high or low on both tests. They want to find out whether or not empathising and systemising are linked. Is a possible to make yourself more empathic?

Some scientists claim that our empathy and systemising abilities can be traced all the way back to prehistoric times.



Eyes

This task tested your ability to judge people's emotions.

Your score: 6 out of 10
Average score for men: 6.6 out of 10
Average score for women: 6.6 out of 10

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 4 - 6: Your result suggests you have a balanced female-male brain and find it neither easy nor difficult to judge people's emotions.

Professor Baron-Cohen at the University of Cambridge says that people usually perform better than they expect to on this test.



Part 4

Fingers

We asked you to measure your ring and index fingers. Your ratios came to:

Right Hand: 0.97
Left Hand: 1.02

Average ratio for men: 0.982
Average ratio for women: 0.991

It's thought that your ratio is governed by the amount of testosterone you were exposed to in your mother's womb. The ratio of the length of your index finger to the length of your ring finger is set for life by as early as three months after conception. Even during puberty, when we experience intensive hormonal changes, the ratio stays the same.

Men generally have a ring finger that is longer than their index finger, which gives them a lower ratio than women, whose ring and index fingers are usually of equal length.

Studies have found that men and women with lots of brothers generally have more masculine finger ratios.



Part 5

Faces

This task looked at how you rate the attractiveness of a series of faces. The images you looked at were digitally altered to create slight differences in masculinity.

Your choices suggest you prefer more feminine faces.

Highly masculinised male faces possess more extreme testosterone markers such as a long, broad and lower jaw, as well as more pronounced brow ridges and cheekbones.

Interestingly, women's preferences are said to vary across the menstrual phase. A more masculine face is preferred during the 9 days prior to ovulation, when conception is most likely.

A typical 'attractive' female face possesses features such as a shorter, narrower, lower jaw, fuller lips and larger eyes than an average face.





Part 6

3D shapes

This task tested your ability to mentally rotate 3D shapes.

Your score: 6 out of 12
Average score for men: 8.2 out of 12
Average score for women: 7.1 out of 12

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 0 - 6: Do you find yourself having to physically rotate a map to point in the direction in which you're travelling? This might explain why you scored in the lower range in the 3D shapes test. Twice as many women as men score in this category. Previous studies suggest that those with a female-type brain or with an arts background fall into this range.


Words

This task looked at your verbal fluency.

Your score: you associated 7 word(s) with grey and you named 7 word(s) that mean happy. We are assuming that all the words you entered are correct.

Average score for men: 11.4 words total
Average score for women: 12.4 words total

What does your result suggest?

If you produced 6 - 10 words: Most people in this range have a female-type brain.

Women are said to use both sides of the brain when doing verbal tasks while men mainly use their left side. Studies have shown that girls develop vocabulary faster than boys. This difference in brain power is caused by levels of pre-natal testosterone.







ok so i guess i'm male-female balanced and can't read maps. hmmm. i can live with that.

so tired cos as usual the weekend was packed. fri went for drinks, ended up at pump room again, then next morning went to learn blading. unfortunately i spent more time dodging the rain. but thanks to my seee-fooos, me learnt how to brake (apparently i've a natural talent for e-braking), how to sorta look more graceful, and steer. and me never fall!

then met HisRoyalHotness.. went to challenger..spent a bomb on stuff cos i finally got sick of the stupid wireless mouse (and i haf a cool looking thumbdrive hehe), went to the river market @ arts house where i finally got to try the infamous c-cup cupcakes (damn ex la..small thing cost like 3 bucks per piece!). jus got back fr errands and ktv-ing (of cos i didnt sing la) with my durian pudding.. mmmm yumm!! of cos..everyone kept trying diff tactics to make me sing. but i is good! i neva!! =0)))

some pics of happy singing ppl. (i is the happy-but-neva-sing one)
actually, i had a really great weekend. i even had time to chat with 2 amazing ppl from the states and tw. i even got the apology. surprise surprise. and a call from a really old friend who used to hang out with me when we were in primary school. been a while since i really enjoyed myself. so i'm jus glad for moments like these.

half day tom.. finally meeting foo and mich and starting spanish tom!! will be a busy week, then off to indo.

which reminds me.. i'll update this post later with more bo liao stuff.. hehe

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as they say.. bo liao employee is the result of bo liao boss...who wanted to make sure he beat my number of emails sent out for the day. heheh hi boss lub ya =0))


=0)

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i wish for the ability to think less, live more.

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Friday, August 17, 2007

the good, the bad & the dead

so life isnt fair, and good ppl die young.

fren's boss, frens' friends, even my own uncle.

then we tink to ourselves, wat a waste..how sad.. (add in a sigh for greater effect)

someone said great ppl die cos god wants his angels back. knowing me, i asked why? why would god want them back? why not leave them on earth so they can add more good to it? and i got 2 answers. one was that cos god wants them to do other good which we probably cant see yet, and another was that he didnt want them to suffer longer on earth.

i dont really know wat to think, cos to a certain extent the concept of death confounds me. but i guess that as long as we appreciated them for who they are or wat they did when they were still with us, then it'd be ok.

dont know if they can even hear all the good things we say abt them when they're already gone, or the tears we shed (and mucous and tissue and wat nots). dont even know where they are though the hell gates are supposedly open right now?

but still..i hope, that wherever they are, they really are in a much happier place.

and..arghhhhhhhhhhhh! why do they keep playing that song!!!! thats why i hate listening to the radio..

bah.

i feel like picking up the piano again.

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Thursday, August 16, 2007

collection point

i realise i'm getting quite good at collecting..

erm..

blisters

and small cuts

and bruises

i hope its not some blood disorder. or premature ageing. eeps!

i'd really rather just be clumsy or accident prone!!

tink i'm also good at collecting memories and questions. couple of stuff i dont quite understand, but which i tink i want some closure though i doubt i'd ever get the answers, be it the ones i want to hear or otherwise. why do i seek something i myself arent sure about? i guess its to dispel uncertainty. but ultimately, no matter wat happens, i guess its meant to be. i really cant deny the role Fate played in this Scene from the Act (or episode if u prefer).

que sera, sera.
whatever will be, will be.

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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

i jus did a count cos eric asked where i've been to this yr

turns out.. went away like 6 times this yr

phil
hk
kl
tw x 2
indo

and then indo again in a couple of days

and now planning trips 8 (bkk?), 9 (china?) and 10 (manila?).

sorta thot of where to go next yr already as well. spain (are we on?), states to visit an old friend (literally).

erm not all my trips are holidays ok.. at least half are for work ok..

i miss manila.

and the boss is acting weird today. so affectionate. something wrong..must be up to no good.. MORE changes to make??? oh god. *sigh*

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

observe

i was..
annoyed by the customs officer in tw this morning
pissed with myself for leaving my cam in tw
completely stoned on the bus and flight back
impressed with 2 guys in tw (thumbs up)
disappointed by someone..time and again..
amazed at how many maggie mee packs i stuffed into my bag
questioning myself over and over again
reading up on melatonin (potent anti-aging stuff!)
bored by the incessantly torrential rain urgh
sick of splashing around puddles and getting drenched
hitting a record of 5 movies in 5 days
laughing silly in the car after hitting someone's head accidentally
constantly stuffed with food..and more food..and moreee foood..

but at the end of it, i'm just glad to have my fave tw babe with me thru out all this shit


When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be

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Friday, August 10, 2007



so its finally national day

and i'll be leaving in a bit

tink i need the break

deserve it in fact

work's been shit

tired of organising activities

dont wanna make anymore decisions

quiet, peace, serenity

exhilaration, adrenaline, delight

what exactly is it that i need?

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Wednesday, August 08, 2007

count down

I'm counting down to the upcoming holiday (note i didnt say counting down to national day) and wat better way than to kickstart with some happy holiday-ish pics from the past week. as u can tell, i was experimenting with borders and gaussian blurs.

bdae with guest of honour: Xiao Lao Ren hehehhehe


Birdpark excursion. beneath the happy smiles were a bunch of grouchy irritable ppl cos it was so hard to navigate ard the birdpark and it was sooooooo hot. few accidents here and there but still, thanks honey for arranging! we shld do it again soon.............NOT.


would love to post more pics but half are stuck with my dear misskang. =0p faster gimme pics!!



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its 5something and i jus spent the last 2 or 3 hrs reading bloody journals for n-acetylcysteine.. i havent even gone thru the milk thistle or trimethylglycine ones.. arghhhhhhhh stupid liver cleanser!!!!!!!!! you give me great pain!!! so u'd better sell welllllllllllll. marketing pls take note.. pls dont let my eyesight and braincells go down the drain..

is it 6 yet?

oh..i jus got scheduled a trip to indo.. 'won a prize to indo' according to the boss. so we be flying the week after tw. 5 days holed up in the conference room to consolidate EVERYTHING. for the entire co. i tink 1wk not enough..considering i spent like 3wks in phil.. and i suspect we be flying by bloody valuair.. i is sick of budget leh!!

wat a holiday it promises to be man.. wat did i do to deserve such a wonderful prize?

-_-'

is it 6 already?

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Sunday, August 05, 2007

the trip to ikea was followed by a thorough revamp of 1.5 cupboards (too tired to go thru the other 0.5), leaving me immensely satisfied with the neatly organised drawers and tons of rubbish.

i love ikea's storage solutions!

shifted thru items of the past, found stuff i agonised over having 'lost', ended up with about 2 bags of rubbish and a very runny nose.

*sniffs & sneezes*

nevertheless, my muscles feel worked out, i've got more space to buy more things and i'm happy!

now.. if only i had similar housewife notions more often.. hmmm.. i guess i'm not that domesticated yet..

it hasnt been easy to get thru the week, and tho sundays just mean mondays are coming up in less than 24hrs, i'm glad the shit for the week is over.. wat an absolutely shitty week it was. *shudder* i'm jus sooooo glad.

thankfully next week will be a short one.. almost forgot i'm flying next week so thanks for the timely reminders.. and no i'm not packed.. shld know by now i dont pack til the day before!

k off to gao dim the rest of the stuff.. typical sunday rushhhh here rushhhh there scenarios.

hope u're having a good sunday =0)

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i kinda managed to kick myself out of the bad mood i've been down with the past few days.

had a couple of bdae celebrations, dinner with the fags, walked at least 10hrs today at the birdpark and ikea

sure, still feel like shit, but sorta managed to convince myself things arent all that bad.

been thru the phase whereby the window never looked so inviting

went thru the time when i was jus gasping for some air to breathe

lived thru moments where i jus felt so sad i jus teared for no apparent reason

i cant exactly know what you are feeling at this very moment

but i jus wanted to say, i was there sometime back

so u'll noe where to find me if u need a hug or a listening ear

cos u were there when i needed one

but most importantly cos u're my friend

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Thursday, August 02, 2007

as the days draw closer
the dreams grow more vivid
senses keenly acute
you see, smell, touch and feel

yet

the images are vague
the memories are blurred
the reality is an illusion
just a figment



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I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
When we lose our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che tu dai

I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restera
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarci che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera
-the prayer

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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

the walk home was surprisingly a pleasant one.

of course, the (4) blisters now hurt like hell (i yelped when it touched water) and my knee feels weird.

red pointy patent heels are obviously not the most ideal of footwear

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PISSED

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

small thing only, settle urself laaaaaaaaa

i not so freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i not a designerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i oso not ur maiddddddddddddddddddddd

gets?

now go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

terima kasih

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my foundation website looks horrible.
it also takes an hr to load thanks to the very efficient indo server.
i cant believe how much they changed the design.
and the text.. so isnt wat i wrote or edited..
its ugly.
i'm upset.

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