Monday, October 30, 2006
i'm complaining
not jus cos its a monday (well yes mainly cos its monday) but also not really jus cos of mon. its hard to train someone huh? or rather, expect that someone else will produce things up to ur own standard. makes me wonder. maybe i shld be a bitch and expect perfection. maybe i shld compromise and jus make do. either way, i'm still stuck in the middle. but sitting on the fence isnt wat i shld do, nor is it something i wanna do. one of life's many many grievances i suppose.
counting down.10..9..8..7.....
Thank god for u guys..should have bought more of these addictive buggers.
counting down again (diff purpose this time)8..7..6....
thinking out loud at 10:49 AM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
haphazard vagrant
thinking out loud at 9:38 PM
Friday, October 27, 2006
today's lessons
1) never watch a movie at vivo city. not only are the seats uncomfortable, the GV management believes in freezing their patrons so that they'll stay awaks and not fall asleep and drool during the movie. plus, the vivo management constantly wants to outdo the GV management, very obvious in the usage of airconditioning. coming out of the movie theatre into the shopping mall is akin to walking out of the fridge into the freezer.
2) the prestige is good, so is the departed, but i cant say the same for oh in ohio. wat seems like a promising comedy with tons of laughs left me so unsatisfied, a total anti-climax (pun intended, tats the whole pt of the show). couldnt they at least try to weave in some theatrical climax or something???? bah.
3) i realise i'm really very sentimental.
4) sashimi really does taste better when u're with the right company. otherwise it jus loses it. so its true, company really does determine appetite.
5) time really really really flies. really. i cant emphasize this enough. really really really really flies.
6) i'm different. same yet different. or indifferent?
7) i supposedly have a wrinkly nose. someone said tat, but to clarify, he meant tat my nose wrinkles when i grin. which is supposedly cute. but a wrinkly nose to me conjures images of witches and hooked noses. and broomsticks. and huge moles on the chin with hair sprouting out. and cackling laughter. and tat hat. ahhhh i feel like going for a halloween party! hmmm..idea..
8) its never too early to plan. already planning xmas party whahahha. now all i need is some mistletoe and someone to play santa or santarina.
thinking out loud at 11:33 PM
testing out a whole lot of fmcg samples. one of them lotions smells like cK one. and suddenly i'm transported back, reliving one of the most embarrasing moments of my life involving a particular mr hugo. yep, he was (is) cute. gosh how extremely mortifying it was.
thinking out loud at 2:51 PM
today was a weird day.
woke up with a weird dream. guess it was weird cos there was someone in it. we were hapily boarding a small plane and laughing at the pilot cos he was too fat and trying his best to squeeze into the cockpit. then somehow one of us got fed up and took over instead.
then a fren told me today tat dream are the exact opposite of reality. and my bubble burst. cos tats true. well, cept for the few nightmares which did sort of realise.
ah well.
then wat else..heard some not so happy news fr coworker..hard to find talented ppl who u can get along with..but..i guess they gotta go their way sooner or later..seems like a perpetual prob with this co..they dont seem to be able to retain talents..but tat also implies tat i'm not..which i guess is true..jus got themselves a loyal secretary i guess. bah. watever.
wasnt v nice during lunch. felt the need to be by myself. so left entertaining work to fren..thanks babe..paiseh..but then..why do i need to go all out to be nice? cordial. cordial is good.
jus havin a weird day. lots more tat happened but cant be bothered to write them out. dont really have the energy to sort thru my thots yet.
some ppl are weird. some ppl think they are unique. i guess i'm just normal.
Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream
Until the day is night and night becomes the day
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away
Until the day that 8x8x8 is 4
Until the day that is the day that are no more
thinking out loud at 12:25 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
nice happy song
thinking out loud at 2:32 PM
quiet quiet day in the office, all alone at my corner cos someone abandoned me..leaving me all alone..not really all alone but leave me with..sigh..nmind.. got things to blog abt hehe.
jus had bfast with the boss..feedback session once again..bout my job..bout new fren, bout everything. true tat this yr has been better than last..actually the last half yr has been much more engaging, but also lots of upsetting, frustrating moments where i'd thot tat i shld jus leave the job. but with the change in jobscope and all tat, its kinda become a personal challenge. to prove tat i can do it, to have pdts under my portfolio. why shld it matter, you might ask? wat value would tat add on to my cv? i dunno..i dunno why i'm still sticking on. i dunno wat value it might or might not add to my future career but then, why shld it really matter? cos in the end, nothing really matters does it?
anyways, yest was quite fun. checked out pan pac's keyaki bar and oriental's axis bar, enjoyed a saketini and white sangria, with quite a few varieties of tapas, and spent less than 25 bucks in total! quite a good deal..lemme explain how..
ok, first we went to the keyaki bar where they had a saketini promo. 9.99 net per glass (i had the midori melon which after a while tasted like kids toothpaste crossed with cough syrup), with complimentary tapas. tat was fr 5 - 730pm and basically feasted on very fresh sushi, not so tender chicken teriyaki, and rather salty tofu in a spoon. but still not bad la. also had the eclair fr the atrium deli. yummy yummy mess it turned out to be. eheheh.
then at 630, we promptly left and headed to oriental. their promo was til 8, which suited us just fine. didnt really like the tapas tho..has some lamb balls..which had a very sao wei..which i really didnt like..the rest of the tapas were liddat only la..prefer the keyaki one hhaah.
amazing how fast time goes by when u're having fun. hehe
thinking out loud at 9:36 AM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
mmm ok, i know its kinda late, i know i'm supposed to be in bed, but my mask hasn't quite dried off yet and i've finished murakami's sputnik sweetheart and albom's tuesdays with morrie and dont wanna start on yet another book. so. here i am, in the dead of the night, jus typing away at the key board tat so cosely resembles the one in the office.
took the bunnies for grooming today. i mus say tat i wont have done many things if not for these 2 ladies. things like..going to the vet, seeing how they check temp for bunnies, bringing them for grooming, spending ALOT of time outside the grooming room and fussing over how fluffy and cute they look when drying their fur, etc etc. parsely was so cute! she can fetch things! if u put the brush in front of her, she'll grab hold of it with her teeth and throw it away elsewhere! hehe but i'm still really glad i dont have mammals for pets..seeing as how easily attached i get to them, i think i'd be really really really upset if they died.
sigh. wanted to get a new phone today but i guess today really no luck la. think really need to go to yishun cos the price there seems to be the most reasonable. no idea why also. ended up watching the prestige. dont really fancy scarlet but wah male leads are quite hot man. heehee. but anyways the show is quite nice la, rather intriguing i must say. even tho there was this 8 yr old girl who kept asking her mom wat happened or why it happened blah blah blah ALL THRU THE MOVIE. kaoz. EEEREETATING. but then went to meet my other fren for oyster omelette and felt better after it. i really shld stop eating supper, i'm getting far to chubby. or issit tubby? flabby? fatty? bah. these... are but synonyms....
thinking out loud at 1:49 AM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
HaPpy BiRthDay!!



nice one with joce! must post! hheeh
thinking out loud at 1:59 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
whining away
SO irritated with the haze. i have itchy eyes and cant stop sneezing. doesnt help tat i live right smack facing indo so i get the haze first hand. ah, the merits of living where i live.
i cant think cos i haven't stopped sneezing. sneezing leave u tired cos i think u exhaust an extraordinary amt of energy ah-choo-ing out the nasty dust particles. u gotta propel them out, make a really loud noise, and exert ur chest,lung and i dunno wat other muscles are required. leaving u feeling weak and winded literally.
anyways, checked out honeypot with mygoodness yest. choc wax was surprisingly not as painful as the one at Strip, and it was a job well done! interesting facilities they have at the place too, bit intimidating and gothy but good service fr nina who was really good at distracting cos she kept making me laugh. hahha. i stil hope, wish and pray the place doesnt close down. i'd be rather upset considering how much we invested. ah well. case of nature vs expenditure i guess.
back to the haze. wah i seriously seriously dont feel like going out. looking at the haze already makes me feel like choking to death. how to golf! blade! how to do anything! wonder if it'd get so bad everyone has to wear masks. then i'll invest in one of those cute jap or taiwanese sorts. hahah. the n95 one jus doesnt meet the cut.
thinking out loud at 10:33 AM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
well.
nothing like having the boss cheer u up.
until, of course, he decides that u are to be in charge of developing a whole range of pdts. 'my baby' and 'i empower you', as he put it ever so nicely. even pricing, i get to decide. how..cool. how scary..'i empower you' is as scary as 'i trust you' which is scarier than 'i love you' i swear. the responsibility is too great! *panic*
bleah.
great weekend coming up. cant wait!
thinking out loud at 11:23 PM
Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm getting' weary
How far is heaven
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me
Cause I've been locked up way too long
In this crazy world, how far is heaven
I just keep on prayin' Lord
Just keep on livin', how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just got to know how far, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me
Tu que estas en alto cielo,
Echame tu bendiciòn
Cause I know there's a better place
Than this place I'm livin', how far is heaven
So I just got to show some faith
And just keep on giving, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just wanna know how far, how far is heaven,
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven,
'cause I just gotta know how far,I just wanna know far
thinking out loud at 10:53 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i feel like the world's burdens have been transferred upon me.
yes i'm exaggerating, but it feels like it.
its like, suddenly i've been tasked to get out all the labels for our new pdts. its like really not easy to tell a designer wat exactly i wan for the label cos i'm like not trained to comment on it? its not as simple as saying ok, i wan this this this. u gotta be able to put ur finger on wat exactly is wrong. then there are mistakes, changes, misinterpretations, dilly-dallying and all tat is normal during work. cos for one i'm not working with the team directly in sg. how to convince ur team overseas to see ur pt of view? and get them to follow thru? then i gotta manage deadlines, and make sure everyone is on track.
but design work is a creative process isnt it? how to push for deadlines? it jus means compromise compromise and compromise and settle for something i might not necessarily like. or something the bosses wont even like in the first place. but in the first place, design brief is not done by me, which means i gotta tread carefully and make sure i dont step on anyones toes or tails. but yet make sure things come out on time, and saleable. then i'm supposed to push for things to go thru, but i'm not very comfortable with being pushy or demanding. (yes i noe that i am, so why is there a problem with me being me isnt it? i dunno. i dunno laaaa.)
coordination is getting so tiring i'm so tempted to jus fly over to the respective countries and work with them direct. i'm like SO frustrated and pekchek i hope i dont implode. then also need to sort out pdt direction for next year and plan ahead. then there is sg operations. sometimes i really wonder if all these tests thrown to me are really for a purpose, or part of a practical joke in lieu of next years april fools day.
thinking out loud at 10:47 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
snapshots

thanks lots man..
thinking out loud at 11:44 PM
i'm upset.
i dropped my phone.
all the contacts, the messages, photos, videos..all the memories..
all gone..
feel forlorn..resigned..maybe i'm too sentimental..its this lost feeling once again.
hi there, feeling-of-being-lost, nice to meet you again. things haven't really changed much since ur last visit. nice of you to pop by again ya?
thinking out loud at 3:47 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
i'm like..tired and quite ready to go off somewhere there jus arent too many ppl around. where ppl exist, problems seem to always follow. of course, this also means that wherever i exist, problems will be ever present too. but things get exponentially worse, with an increase in the no of ppl involved. it seems strange for someone of my age to feel this way, sometimes i feel like an old soul.
its time for a break.
for one, the past 13 days have been spent working. granted, hk didnt really count as work, but flying around is really tiring. plus of some strange politics that was ongoing. but it was an interesting trip, i got to do many things tat i never did before. such as sleeping by myself overseas. i mean i have my own room at home but still, not my own place. haha never had a chance to, (or jus never dared to) but i felt free..and liberated almost. not once did i feel alone, or lonely. but it just felt good to be my own person, to do my own thing, to do as i wished.
hk this time was diff fr manila..true, it was so tiring, but i really enjoyed my time there. love the ppl, the place, and the food. sadly i dont think i'm due back there in quite a long while. such a pity..i really had great memories of my stay there..i had fun, made alot of new friends, both normal and special ones at the Home. not much of spare time for myself, but yet i felt fulfilled.
this trip was also diff fr the last time i went to hk. diff emotions, diff company, diff experiences. saw diff parts of hk, a diff side to things. sometimes i missed one or 2 ppl, but i dunno, it was jus different. wasnt sad or anything, maybe i jus wished i had someone to share the events of the day. but somehow in my hotel room (ibis north pt, good hotel to stay in!) it was a time where i truly felt like my own person. like i didnt owe anyone anyting or explanation for my behaviour, mood or watever. and i relished in that feeling. maybe it was jus tat there wasn't anyone else ard, and i only had me for company. and tat was more than enough.
so..here i am back in sg. its quite a strain to go to work i actually fell sick and had half day mc..i feel so guarded and wary sometimes it gets on my nerves. i miss the days when the 5 of us worked together. but i constantly havae to remind myself that missing something is jus a feeling of missing. i have to detach myself fr tat and jus move along. dwelling in the past is jus bad for me, its jus bad for anyone. but i look forward to the evenings, catching up, and all tt. even had a bbq at home,something i really wanted to do for quite sometime but never got ard to organising it. glad i did cos it was jus a great evening!

i couldnt resist putting the stupid one of me. hahah cos the pit seemed almost like a huge birthday cake with tons of candles, and i was inspired to make a birthday wish hehe. of course, it also implies (in line with the tons of candles) tat i'm getting older and older. looking thru the pics when the 5 of us were tog was quite refreshing..the smiles were genuine. it seemed alot easier to do so then.
anyways, hk pics will be up when ive found the time to do so..along with pertapis pics. we finally moved the bunnies out of the home to mun's home cos we jus couldnt bear to see them suffering anymore. first time me visiting a vet..all the way in the heart of toa payoh industrial estate =_=..goddamn ulu place can..heng they were ok. made them a nice little place, cosy and all tat, with tons of fresh veggies and TLC too!
ah well..all in a days work. dont mind work lke this actually cos it doesn't really feel like work. i still think i need a break. brad's back..i've got issues to sort out with him at work..hope i do and say the right thing.. *pray hard*
thinking out loud at 3:13 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006

how can u even start to get mad at someone who sends this to u? eheheh
thinking out loud at 5:06 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
so gonna be late getting to the airport..i'm still home, transport not here yet!
*/panic*
thinking out loud at 5:24 AM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
dont feel homesick. jus sian. guess the week has been too hectic..a mad rush. to the pt where i was panicking sometime before 5 today. jus as well i guess, feeling homesick is such a lonely feeling. but then again, i jus feel funny. subconscious acting up again i guess. phil was ok, but maybe its a diff circumstance, diff location. i dunno. and i dunno why i keep going 'maybe, maybe'. like i'm making excuses for myself.
anyway, to those of u who sent me hugs after seeing my msn nick, thank you! kinda lost track of where the hugs came from, even from the boss who was surprisingly generous with hugs hhaha. so funny. and the hugs came in all forms and quantities, neva saw so many hug emoticons within the same day before. n even tho i had quite a few hugs already, seeing the next one never failed to make me smile.
like the gentlest, warmest of evening breezes,
its unmistakeable presence just barely the kiss of a butterfly,
yet leaving behind the deepest of impressions.
thinking out loud at 11:06 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006

one of the many things which make me smile
thinking out loud at 3:50 PM
woke up needing a hug..
sometimes, tats just all that we need!
*HUG*
thinking out loud at 7:47 AM
Monday, October 02, 2006
a piece of the jigsaw puzzle

got my first childrens' day present.. since...erm pri 6? ahahha
anyway it reads happy children's day all ard this seemingly insignificant piece of lego. there's definitely more than meets the eye. simple because it doubles up as a magnet!! talk abt functionality and dual purpose. aesthetics and function combined. plus its cute and in my fave colour!
of course the gift cant quite compare to the company for the evening. really appreciate you trying to make me smile the whole night hahah really sweet. but i guess wat makes friends like u special is tat u let me be me. no questions asked. its jus nice to take a break from being nice, ultra responsive, PR-oriented and all tat once in a while.
but maybe its not jus tat i'm expressionless..not jus tat i'm tired..maybe i just dont want to give so much of myself anymore..dont want to give too much to life, to living. maybe there isnt a need..cos the more u give, the harder u'll fall. maybe its easier to play safe, watch from the sidelines..from a safer distance...
but still..thanks lots kel..thanks for everything (oh and congrats on winning me based on the sheer number of blog entries and bombastic words you use... =0p hehhe)
thinking out loud at 11:16 PM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
mooncake festival is..
...the time to be cultured and check out the moon! just kidding la.
mooncake festival is actually the time of the yr where lanterns are burnt, the stories of chang er and her bunny are all mixed up and given modern spins to it and everyone is reminded how each mooncake contains at least 1000 calories (it had better not be kilocalories).
so u'll see everyone with huge bags of these confectionery, and yr after yr, new flavours spring up to keep variety-driven consumers happy..normal skin, snow skin(oo yummy), pastry skin, in flavours like apricot, truffle, choc, green tea, yam, u name it, they have it. i love the snow skin. as in, just the skin. i dont really like mooncake cos its quite sweet and sticky. but well, i'm still game if there are new flavours to try.
but nothing quite beats the one i had today...
SEA URCHIN mooncake.
for the uninitiated, mooncakes are meant to be sweet, kinda like a chinese turkish delight.
now, sea urchins, on the other hand, are seafood. *think snails and sashimi*
somehow, these 2 just dont quite go together. tho the sea urchin did have a slight bak kwa after taste to it. plus it was also super oily.
so tell me, wat was the oddest mooncake u had this year?
oh if u really wanna noe the Accurate, but Boring legend behind the festival, do google it. no harm learning more abt the chinese since there are so many chinese around.=0)
thinking out loud at 10:27 PM
spent fri trawling thru the streets of chinatown.started of at cantonment road, with some good ol german sausages and beer, and wound up at the red dot museum. explored all the diff streets of chinatown, checked out quite a few cool places there, few restaurants, pubs. interesting evening. saw a really different side to chinatown. and got a free swiss army knife too!
super pissed today.
went to pertapis and was SO upset at the condition of the enclosure. not only was the litter box so full of waste, there was algae in the water bottle and small mite like insects flying and crawling ALL over the litter box. i mean, if u cant be bothered to get fresh veggies, fine i understand. but algae? insects? basket. it was so bad we jus threw the whole litter box away. didnt even want to bother clearing and cleaning it. then cos its been raining, the rabbits were abit wet, the tarpaulin sheet wasn't even properly covering the enclosure!
and of course, our pertapis coordinator wasnt ard. waited for him for the longest time..supposed to be in at 3, but said will be late. so we waited til 4 plus cos we wanted to get the cage sanitiser from him. wah. really wear my patience thin lor. i was sooooo mad. and he stil hasn't even replied to my messages.
angry.
thinking out loud at 1:14 AM