Sunday, December 31, 2006

love, lost & found

its tat very last day.

the last day of 2006.

before today, i sorta thot of wat i'd reflect upon, write, and think back.

then suddenly, its less than 24hrs before the yr is officially over.

i guess i shld still somewhat reflect on the yr tat has been.

lets see.. this could take a while..eye massages will be good.

i know i was quite unhappy at work at the beginning of 2006. thankfully i had someone keeping me going, cheering me on, etc etc. but all good things must come to an end, albeit abit painfully.

so i fell in love, so i fell out of love. so i rediscovered the meaning of friendship, kinship. love hurts, love heals, love sucks, love never ceases to amaze me with what it can do to you. self love aside, we're so dependent on love from other ppl, even to the point of being captivated by the wonderful things it supposedly brings.

and so i went on a Journey, in search of self love. while i did let go of some thorny issues buried in the deep recesses of my memory, it also made me see that i had no excuse to not like myself. really..there's nothing wrong with me. even if there is, so? and then? watever la..

Having said tat, i still have lots to work on. self esteem, confidence, being better, growing up, blah blah blah.

But I guess I must have grown up over the past 12 months.

Nothing quite beats first hand experience. Its been quite a tiring walk with quite a few hard falls. work wise, its been ok. Got my raise, got to travel to indo, phil, hk, got to meet many ppl along the way. Got to know all my colleagues better, its really great when you get along with the ppl you work with. I’ve got an exception but oh well whatever. I’m still grateful for my bosses..who else gets personal sms bdae wishes fr the chairman fr the company?? I’m glad brad has been understanding and kept watch over us. I’m kinda still swimming ard in the dark.. being in charge of all the products of your company is kinda scary. Plus half the time I really don’t know wat I’m doing..jus using common sense to guide me thru and pure luck to get to the other end. Prob will have 2 portfolios next yr..pdts, plus sg office operations. Don’t really know wat to think of double workload and single pay tho. Haha.

2006 is very special to me.. cos I loved, lost & found.

Its also probably better know as ‘yun’s year of friends’. Made so many friends this yr, many of them whom were lost but found, others who were found, but there were also those who were lost.

For those 'found', thank you. I shant name names, but thank you for:


its also the yr of the firsts.. think i wrote something like tat before?

anyway, was my first time:


somehow I’ve been partying and going out an extraordinary amount. And traveling too. Basically, I’m rarely home. Which.. is neither good nor bad I guess? Jus tiring, sometimes abit empty. I know its been a painful yr for some of us.. i dont know if i've become more cynical or accepting, cos i have the 'oh well, watever la' mentality for almost all things. not much feeling, not much opinions or watsoever. depends on which perspective u are looking at it.

but i still like to think i've retained some semblance of hope.. hope tj recovers soon, hope whoever’s having a complicated life right now manages to solve things, hope all of us find happiness, hope things tat cause pain & unhappiness, turn out to be true blessings in disguise.

goodbye love, lost & found.

hello hope.

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Saturday, December 30, 2006

of buttons & mutton

actually had lots to blog abt, but internet down. so too bad.

been a super busy week..going out with various ppl, entertaining guests, helping brad hunt for barney vcds.. =_=)'' , not going to the gym.. etc etc.

but..

Finally its the last working day of 2006!

but the REAL work started after 6.

First stop: Parkway, to get a present for laura. we've always been great as a class. but we're even better at doing things last minute, and have them turn out well. one good example would be our results. haha.
anyways...

hehe the remnants of S03d. still, always good to meet everyone!

ewan's house, designed by his dad. its gorgeous!!
comes with basement with band..

at tj's house writing the engagement card,
even tho he wasn't ard..
haha hi tj! u shld be back home by the time u see this!

then....amidst all confusion, got whisked away to KAP macs for some chinese session.

nooo i'm not re-taking chinese la..pass already ok.. jus kpo-ing n doing chinese brochures in the dead of the night. went to KAP thinking its 24hrs..then they kicked us out at 1 la!! wah lau.. cos only the drive thru is 24hrs.. =_='

so..we're now in amk macs. nice place, looks lots like west coast one. but got good service. this guy kindly unplugged their xmas tree socket so tt we can use it. hahah! and we conveniently moved the tables n chairs to suit us. we're so good at making ourselves at home man. hahhaha!

getting used to late nights.. gonna be late nights for the next few days. cant decide wat to do on nye! sigh.. at least i've sorta decided on wat to wear. tat shld solve quite a few headaches hahahahha!

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Friday, December 29, 2006

. today's playlist .

Featuring:

Soundtrack of Step up
David Tao
Jay Chou
Kelly Clarkson
Lisa Ono
U2
Jack Johnson
Eric Clapton
Christina Aguilera
Alanis Morissette

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

hmmm. you know wat..

i love my friends!!!!

despite it being the most sleepy, rainy, cold, boring, sian and miserable boxing day ever, its still a good day!

simply love being driven out to lunch (i had xi zup beef hor fun, damn good!), and getting picked up for dinner (crab bee hoon, again..heheh).

heheh love love love this!

but. i'm hungry. can my lift come soon? hehe i'm such a freeloader.

oh check this out. its one of my xmas gifts, but wat struck me most was how multi-purpose it is.


talk abt marketing and pdt benefit. =_=''

anyone wanna test it out?

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Monday, December 25, 2006

why xmas is special Part 3

have wanted to have a bbq with all my frens for the longest time. since..i duno...last yr? beginning of this yr?

well, FINALLY, it happened. =0)

didnt manage to get all my frens, too many groups is jus painful to manage. and there were also the lost sheep who mixed up dates, etc etc but glad tat those who showed up showed up.



he baked this himself!!!!
comes in 2 flavours, bailey's mint & peanut coffee
i'm soooo impressed!







then kel started conducting lessons.
you can tell he's gonna be a really good teacher






my presents! thanks you guys!
No idea why ppl are buying me books, but this is prob the 5th or 6th book i've received this yr. not tat i'm compaining, but it does suggest a certain lack of knowledge doesnt it?? sigh.

nmind, i'll read more! know more! and impress the socks off you all!! muahahhahahaha

anyways, somehow i'm not quite in the most festive of moods. maybe its the thot of yet another work week, maybe its cos i'm tired. maybe its the realisation, tat after all tat merry-making, i'm still where i left off, without a single step forward in the direction i was meant to be on. with a pinch of apprehension, and a dash of uncertainty, here i go, past the throes that is 2006, and into the unknown that is 2007.

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

why xmas is special to me Part 2

here's some of the snapshots of my 2nd xmas at HDI.

everyone came back!


us with brad. think its the first time we've taken such a shot.
makes me miss the good ol days.
bet the bosses also miss those days huh??


my erm not so neat desk. hahaha


like this pic of yi & mun. both look so sweet!

me & su mae, before the feasting began!

the popiah station. 10q yiyi!
the bang kuang was super yummy, & there was SOOO MUCH liao4! prawn, egg, crispy stuff, sausage, crabmeat, and even 2 freaking huge boxes of tao geh (i severely disapprove of this one ehehehe)
the rest of the food.
i think we order waaaayyy too much every year.
this yr, we even had roast duck, all the way fr eunos!
did i also forget to mention we made away with some hana maki even before the tray of sushi made its way out of the pantry?
whahahahah!

=0)
btw, big boss has a super funny expression. hahah!

the making of my popiah.
by master chef yiyi-chan.
the masterpiece. absolutely delicious!

family unites in strength.
one-two-three blowwww with all your might!


standard thing to do after xmas parties. haha.
the ever classic pic-in-the-loo.

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Friday, December 22, 2006

why xmas is special to me part 1

before i forget. here's a dedication to someone really special.

I GOT MY FIRST XMAS PRESENT YESTERDAY!!!!

(at least i think it shld be the first?)

anyway, back to wat i was saying.

I GOT A ONE YR SUBSCRIPTION FOR HER WORLD!!!

yayyyyy!

of course, my dear missmymy conveniently told me tat this present was good cos it kills 2 birds with 1 stone. (read: she benefits too)

but i had an issue with it being delivered to my house.

my letter box is SIMPLY TOO SMALL for a 500 page magazine.

and i probably have to queue up at the post office to collect it cos bulk mail gets returned. bah.

shall go think of an agreement with the postman. here's where the charm (tat apparently appeals to *ahem* my kind) comes in.

but still.. yayayayayay!!!! thank you!! muack muack honey!!

ps if wanna borrow then come my house and get it yourself ok? lend it to u, free of charge! i'll even throw in a comfy seat by my balcony and whatever beer happens to sit in the fridge then. hows tat?

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oh dear. bloody report is taking me too much time.

wat do i noe abt infrared thermographic cameras anyway???

~!@#$%^

give me my bio anyday man. physics jus isnt quite my cup of tea. not to mention wavelengths, frames, and tons of technical jargon i've never heard of before.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR COUSIN!!

finally u're of age!! sorry i didnt get u ur ipod, but really hope u pass ur exams this time man. hahah i'll try and get my boss to hire u otherwise hor?

one more bdae wish going out. Happy birthday and hope u really have a good yr ahead!

tired from the day. rushing and getting done, buying, making decisions, meeting up, collecting, carrying, jostling, Q-ing, blah blah blah. yet another day beckons.

car, i noe being where u are now must be tiring. while we really wish we could be there with u, all i can say is tat our heart and prayers and hugs and all are always with u and tj. *hug* hang in there? and if u can, smile smile smile smile smile! miss you guys, cant wait for u to be back!

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Thursday, December 21, 2006

i love love love being on leave. haha

tho i shldnt be up so early!

nmind. lotsa things to settle today, then party party party here i come!

pls pls pls dont rain on sat..rain today, tom, anything! jus not on sat..

in fact, why not start raining now so it wont rain on sat?

haha

tj get well get well get well!

i swear i'm being irritating repeating everything 3 times.

heck. i like i like i like i like.

=0D i is happy!

oh damn jus rem i have a presentation to do for brad's dad. argh. okok nmind pia later. relac first haha!

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Monday, December 18, 2006

have something on my mind. no conclusion, jus waiting and waiting, and driving me nuts!

argh! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeritating...

gonna be a damn packed week. hope it goes as i hope it will.

anyway, leave it up to destiny? or ur destiny is in ur hands? when should you be in which end of the continuum?

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Sunday, December 17, 2006

jus random thots.

sometimes i think to myself its tiring to document things tat happen day in, day out. sometimes its fun to see your 'work' after the entry's been published. sometimes its jus to kill time.

sometimes, i wonder why i bother keeping a blog. othertimes, i blog to seek solace, in something i cannot see, feel or fathom.

sometimes i feel things i shouldn't. sometimes i think too much abt things tat dont matter. soemtimes i tell myself its ok to do tat cos if it makes me think too much abt it, then it shld matter. sometimes i miss you, sometimes i dont, sometimes i dont know who it is you are that i'm missing.

sometimes i wonder abt the truth. sometimes i wonder how much of wat i hear or see is honest. sometimes i think honesty is overrated.

then i think abt retribution, i think abt relationships, i think abt family, i think abt life.

and i think abt me, and i think abt you guys, and i think of us, and i think of them.

but at the end of the day, watever i think abt doesnt matter does it? cos its wat i actually do tat really shld.

well, watever may be, may be. =0)

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Friday, December 15, 2006

before i forget..

since i'm in the midst of coincidences, thot it was interesting how this song always happens to pop up, esp when i need it most.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
And He will do something new today

ok, whoever-you-are-up-there. point taken.

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not too sure why things happened the way they did today.

apart from getting ade and going to car's place before she leaves (car & tj, we're waiting for u guys to be back ya?!), from meeting my-dear-potong-pasir-fren and ending up in a little eatery in little india called 'the countryside' (=_+) and celebrating the 22nd wedding anniversary of a couple we didnt know, there were also the 3 small separate incidents all linked by a common thread.

thank goodness for you my trusty night owl for still being awake at 1 in the morning. =0D

planning activities for the week ahead..flipped thru the months before. realised i have, in many ways, changed.

perhaps, i've started to grow up.

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

back from a holiday feeling even more tired than when i left.

ready to face tom?

well i have to be.

tj get well soon!

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Friday, December 01, 2006

supposed to be on mc. but ended up at work. here's wat i did to amuse myself in the remaining 5mins before i leave for 2 weeks!

The Priss
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLDf)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

 Your exact opposite:
The Playstation


 Random Gentle Sex Master
 You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy

CONSIDER: The Manchild

Take the test: The 32-Type Dating Test .

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