Monday, May 22, 2006

One step at a time?

Through the past week, i realise one thing everyone says is tat i shld take one step at a time, and tat time will heal it all. But one step towards where? How? Go where? There are so many possibilities, so much so tat its endless, and from my perspective, extremely scary and makes me kinda hesitant too. Not that i'm comfy where i am right now, but then when u have so many paths (career, relationship, etc) to choose from (many of which are crossroads), u just can't help but feel so lost and alone.

so many changes, in such a small spate of time. Its like a huge wave that hits you, knocking u off ur feet, forcing all the air out of your lungs such that u can't breathe. The more u struggle, the more frantic and panicky you get. And while u're so frightened and scared, u still have to find it in u to calm down and stay afloat, otherwise there marks the end of your time on this earth. And precisely because u're so afraid, the harder it is for you to be in the right frame of mind such tat you can operate in the best way possible out of the situation. You know very well that if u don't, u'll drown, but u're so very afraid tat even if you try, u fail.

Breathe yun yun, breathe. Pick up the pieces, find yourself again, as you have always been able to. its not easy i know, but courage, my love! courage! You won't be able to be as in control as you would have liked, but enjoy this feeling of uncertainty, simply because it promises of better things to come. Cos..if ure already in a rut, things can't get any worse and can only get better right? Cheery up honey, you've got such a long way to go. Just as you have faith in others around you, have a lil faith in you. Do what you would do naturally. Just be your natural self. Just follow your heart. Cos its a good one. And you know that too.

thinking out loud at 1:53 PM


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