Thursday, May 18, 2006
slowly, painfully, but surely
have u ever felt this ache in ur heart when u think of someone? its this funny feeling like ur heart is being squashed, and then u are overcome by an overwhelmingly strong urge to cry, and of course u usually end up crying?
the kleenex manufacturers must be very pleased with their sales this month, considering the container loads of tissue tat i have used to soak up the buckets of tears and mucous hahah.
for now, i'm on this valley shaped emotional rollercoaster (can u imagine the shape of a valley)? well i'm still on the downward slope..hopefully i'll reach the bottom pit soon so i can start to climb back up again.
but i also can't help but wonder how he is doing, cos this sort of sad feeling is something i won't even wan to wish upon my enemies (if any haha). but whatever decision u choose to make, whatever answer u have really has to be what u really truly believe in ok? while i'm still in the process of gettin used to, i'd feel even worse otherwise. right now, i'll be busy getting to know my friend lots better, and caring for him too, cos tats wat friends are for right? but u noe, as i grow older (sadly so) i realise tat i have to work doubly, triply hard to make sure my relationships (friends, family etc) work, because the effort tat goes into it rewards me in many ways tat i can't stop marvelling at. for all of u who have somewhat or other shared with me parts of your life, thank you, and i sincerely hope i'm somehow managed to make ur life tat bit better.
damn..my fingers are numb from cutting cardboard..cos we're having a workshop with pertapis children's home today, and we're teaching them how to make craft so they can sell at their carnival. hahah this is incidentally not totally because we refuse to help them sell coupons ok..but we're teaching them a skill here ma..right? then next time no need to make me sell coupons ma..=0p
work's come to a standstill for the moment, cos i really can't quite concentrate on it. so luckily pertapis is a welcome break from the usual things i handle at work. and thankfully, my bosses are understanding (ahhaha my regional manager specifically told me not to listen to sad love songs and watch some movie like MI3 or something hheheh).
so..once again, in the words of mun mun (the wise woman hahah), ''it's not going to easy, take a deep deep deep breath and get ready to go through it! with everyone ard you , you definetely can! like LOTR ........chiong arh!!!"
and because of u, i definitely will.
thinking out loud at 11:36 AM
Comments:
heehee..those words are for u: sadness will disappear with wind. u are also special and deserved the best^^
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