Tuesday, June 13, 2006
don't know why
i don't know why but today feels like its the last day for me before i go on a really long trip. away from everything.
it feels like i'm :
1) going on maternity leave whahhaha
2) quitting work and not starting til a yr later
3) going on a religious journey of some sort
4) going overseas to work permanently
5) leaving on a jet plane don't know when i'll be back again. =0p
don't ask me why but i've never felt this way before. it feels like i'm going to leave behind many things. there's this sense of trepidation, like i'm stepping out of the closet. yet i can't bear to leave it all behind. i don't know. just feels like i'm not going to be back. for a while.
its not the usual i'm-a-scaredy-cat, oh-dear-will-my-plane-crash kind of feeling. its different. kinda sad, wistful, yet anticipating cos i've never been to hk before (and panicking cos i couldn't find my passport last night. i was damn worried can!). i'm already missing everyone leh! colleagues, friends, family, gosh this is silly. its diff when u're in the same country and not seeing each other, and diff when u're in a totally diff country i guess? aiyah dunno la.
so... mata ne! i shan't say sayonara. tats too final for my liking. =0)
*mata ne = see u again
thinking out loud at 1:30 PM
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