Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Let me sneeze

woke up earlier than usual, to realise tat i'd been crying in my sleep. dunno why leh, don't rem dreaming or watsoever. but then was overcome with some strange feeling, then couldn't stop tearing. jus felt so sad after it.

felt like that once before or twice before. but if i didn't rem wrongly, a dream which involved crying usually precedes. i know there was one involving my dad, and i was crying in the dream. can't rem wat happened, its hazy and i can't picture it anymore. selective memory? i don't know, possibly?

think our brain is selective. it creates our own history, our own perception of things, cos of the way it processes things tat happen to us, things we see, hear, etc. memories are stored, hiddened, shelfed, archived selectively. memories in itself, are a distortion of our own lives. so we rem certain incidences better than others, or certain details, and then we choose to forget others. then when we try to recall, and relay it to others, there will inevitably be things tat we forgot to say, or didn't want to say. plus the other party also chooses to pick out certain details and forget abt the others. so communication becomes flawed.

someone said tat crying was like cleansing. so its good actually. i don't know if i agree, but well i don't think i'd stop my tears. i will try to, but u noe how its not good when u suppress ur sneezes? i mean, u sneeze to remove pollutants and dust, so stopping it means u're not getting rid of it. so in a way, maybe crying follows the same concept? cept if i sneeze more than 5 times, it probably means i'm falling sick.

*sniff*

thinking out loud at 7:45 AM


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