Wednesday, July 12, 2006

winding down

just got back, only to realise i didn't off my lappy before going to work! kao! tmd! my poor lappy.. sayang.. nothing to do now while waiting for effect of the medicine to kick in..

anyways heard many nice chinese songs..surprising considering i never really listened to chinese songs..was always a strictly english song listener. so was surprised i actually heard of many of the songs before..and tat they are really nice too. they're so sad, poetic even. even jay chou leh. i jus heard one of his songs today cos yiyi was the in house dj for the afternoon.


hmmm the english translation abit funny..somehow in chinese it sounds so much better. hope the chinese words appear correctly tho.. and pic abit small so have to enlarge urself. but didn't realise tat his songs were actually so emotional leh. always thot it was monotone and all tat. couldn't stand his hair incidentally. still can't stand his attitude either la. but its a nice tune, gotta give him credit for his musical inclination (cos i have none, and he can play the piano so well leh). i wonder wat made him write this..

went pass kent ridge park today. never knew it was so nice. it was quiet, scenic, understated. shall drive there someday when i feel the need for time out. met val, who was severely amused tat i could be so horrified she didn't wear an ankle guard. i mean she was hobbling ard lor! its no fun having a joint injury..i shld noe..i've dislocated my knee thrice lor. then met her fren, nice guy, but the first one so far i've met who doesn't drink coffee. hahha so cute. and best of all, he thot i was younger than an '82 baby. (yi - yeah!! woohoo!! whahhaha) Was too tired to go zouk after tat, esp after my (free) chai latte. but then free entry leh. ah well there will be another time.

rem how i said i was gonna make someone happy everyday? i guess i did, cos managed to make myself happy today, in knowing tat altho we may never be close or wat again, heres a guy who i will always have a soft spot(s) for, tat for the first time, there really was someone i cared for lots and lots, and whom for a brief period in time, cared alot for me too.

its ok yunyun, u'll think of him, u'll miss him, u'll feel sad sometimes, u'll smile at the good memories, u'll feel lost, u'll be ok. its ok, u'll feel like this cos u love him. its ok, u're not perfect. u don't have to be. u're human, and u're entitled to ur mistakes and silly things tat u do. just as how u dont understand wats going on now, maybe neither does he? but will he ever forgive u for being such a pain? or causing him so much pain?

fall honey, fall so tat u can start all over again. fall so tat u'd know how not to fall down so painfully the next time. fall so tat u won't make the same mistakes, so tat in time, maybe u won't even fall anymore. Just like when u learnt how to blade. rem how u fell? and how u're prob gonna fall again? doesn't matter. One day, u'd be able to blade, as well as mun and the rest.

Time is the biggest, bestest band-aid for us now.

thinking out loud at 11:11 PM


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