Friday, August 18, 2006
my simple complicated wish
its only august.. 3 more mths to my bdae.. wish it'd be here faster..cos i already have thot of wat to wish for. i wonder who came up with the logic tat if u said out ur wish, it wont come true? cos i usually dont and in the end, the wishes dun come true also leh. have they? maybe la, in ways i didnt realise.
but this yr, its not jus the silly wishes like i wish i'd grow skinnier, or get better grades. instead, i'd wish to be able to find that special someone, whoever he might be (i hope its not a she tho) and be with him. a simple wish, but not as easy and simple. its quite complicated actually. simply cos we (or i, rather) tend to complicate things and there are so many complicating factors involved. then again, if my wish is just so simple, then i can't be the one who complicates it tat much isn't it? since i'm clear on wat i want?
dunno la, i have so many things i wish i'd wish for. when i was lots younger, i thot if i could be granted a wish, i'd wanna wish for unlimited wishes. then guilty conscience took over, so i thot ok, for every wish i make for myself, i'd make one for someone else or for the world or endangered animals or something.
but this yr, its not jus the silly wishes like i wish i'd grow skinnier, or get better grades. instead, i'd wish to be able to find that special someone, whoever he might be (i hope its not a she tho) and be with him. a simple wish, but not as easy and simple. its quite complicated actually. simply cos we (or i, rather) tend to complicate things and there are so many complicating factors involved. then again, if my wish is just so simple, then i can't be the one who complicates it tat much isn't it? since i'm clear on wat i want?
dunno la, i have so many things i wish i'd wish for. when i was lots younger, i thot if i could be granted a wish, i'd wanna wish for unlimited wishes. then guilty conscience took over, so i thot ok, for every wish i make for myself, i'd make one for someone else or for the world or endangered animals or something.
i wonder if i shld wish to find true happiness tho.. hahah cant quite decide, cos there are some things now which makes my heart hurt when i think abt them. but this wish is also simple and complicated.. i know i want to be happy, bt things aren't as simple as jus me wanting to be happy.. i dunno la.. damn sian and restless and i dunno la..
teared in the office while watching this.. i thot it was amazing.. by wat the dad did.. and even more touched by the unconditional love i witnessed.. even tho the son wasn't 'normal', i'm sure he felt the love each day, every minute and second of it..
thinking out loud at 10:32 AM
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