Friday, September 15, 2006

All i can taste is this moment

finally a quiet day at work. there hasn't been a day since manila quite like this. quiet, dreary, slow, almost like winding down after a day's work, or the lazy pace sundays should be made of.

sorta matches my mood. contemplative, pensive, ruminative, just musing about things. (as usual?)

amazing how time passes, esp when work is going ok. i've sorta worked out my plan for the new products, starting to figure out how i can fit into this organisation and its future plans. many other things left for ironing, but so far so good.

how nice if life can go by the same. week after week, month after month, jus going by, spinning you til u're dizzy and cant quite catch your breath. but amazing how it makes life easier on you cos u dont have to dread wat is coming up. i guess cos work takes up most of my days now (and nights and weekends), it hardly leaves me with any time, energy nor space to bother abt other more impt things like myself. heh. not tat i'm complaining, infact i love tat i have things to do. frustrating as it can be, i rather be made to feel useful and busy, than bored, restless and irritable.

in some strange way..its almost like.. how shld i put this.. dont know how to phrase it.. hmmm.. ok its almost like work has compensated for the lack of activity in the love and relationship section. it does seem that the 2 cant go together, realised i've either had one or the other, and never both at the same instance. its kinda like he-who-would-affectionately-call-me-yunyun is teaching me a lesson in greed - tat i cant have it all. how sad.

well, i cant help but be greedy in this instance. who wont want to have it all in their life? i mean, i'm not talking abt being rich, with a wife or kids, a 7 storey mansion complete with the entire fleet of cars specially imported from their respective countries.

but more like, the feeling tat u are going somewhere with ur career, the feeling of you thinking of someone, and tat someone else thinks of you too, the feeling when u go home and noe there are ppl who love u unconditionally, the feeling of contentment, serenity even. the sort of feeling tat only you will noe it when u feel it.

so maybe i've just become blind to all tat is ard me. tho i do noe i've got tons of frens and family who love me. judging from the amt of food the pile on me cos they claim i've gotten too skinny, i bet they love me to bits hehe. (i've been hearing lots of these sentences.. 'wat! tats all u're having?! i'm eating the same amt as you and i've already had dinner lor!' ... 'wah no lor u better eat more'... and of course, there are those who realise all talk and no action equals to nought. and they jus pile the food on my plate, sneakily or otherwise). thanks you all.. heh its sweet of you, to let me noe tat there still are ppl ard who care. i guess most of all, tats just wat everyone needs.

thinking out loud at 9:26 AM


Comments:
Perhaps the thought that struck me most after reading this is the axiom of sacrifice likened to trade offs and all that and yet it seems sometimes its more like filling up the gap and empty spaces. Another form of escapism?

I think you can have both, to find the joy in working and love. So I leave you with this quote to muse upon as you often want to

"You will see a lot of things,
But they will mean nothing to you
If you lose sight of the thing you love."
-- First Sight

Yapysp
# posted by Anonymous Anonymous : 10:34 AM
 
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