Sunday, October 15, 2006
its time for a break.
for one, the past 13 days have been spent working. granted, hk didnt really count as work, but flying around is really tiring. plus of some strange politics that was ongoing. but it was an interesting trip, i got to do many things tat i never did before. such as sleeping by myself overseas. i mean i have my own room at home but still, not my own place. haha never had a chance to, (or jus never dared to) but i felt free..and liberated almost. not once did i feel alone, or lonely. but it just felt good to be my own person, to do my own thing, to do as i wished.
hk this time was diff fr manila..true, it was so tiring, but i really enjoyed my time there. love the ppl, the place, and the food. sadly i dont think i'm due back there in quite a long while. such a pity..i really had great memories of my stay there..i had fun, made alot of new friends, both normal and special ones at the Home. not much of spare time for myself, but yet i felt fulfilled.
this trip was also diff fr the last time i went to hk. diff emotions, diff company, diff experiences. saw diff parts of hk, a diff side to things. sometimes i missed one or 2 ppl, but i dunno, it was jus different. wasnt sad or anything, maybe i jus wished i had someone to share the events of the day. but somehow in my hotel room (ibis north pt, good hotel to stay in!) it was a time where i truly felt like my own person. like i didnt owe anyone anyting or explanation for my behaviour, mood or watever. and i relished in that feeling. maybe it was jus tat there wasn't anyone else ard, and i only had me for company. and tat was more than enough.
so..here i am back in sg. its quite a strain to go to work i actually fell sick and had half day mc..i feel so guarded and wary sometimes it gets on my nerves. i miss the days when the 5 of us worked together. but i constantly havae to remind myself that missing something is jus a feeling of missing. i have to detach myself fr tat and jus move along. dwelling in the past is jus bad for me, its jus bad for anyone. but i look forward to the evenings, catching up, and all tt. even had a bbq at home,something i really wanted to do for quite sometime but never got ard to organising it. glad i did cos it was jus a great evening!
i couldnt resist putting the stupid one of me. hahah cos the pit seemed almost like a huge birthday cake with tons of candles, and i was inspired to make a birthday wish hehe. of course, it also implies (in line with the tons of candles) tat i'm getting older and older. looking thru the pics when the 5 of us were tog was quite refreshing..the smiles were genuine. it seemed alot easier to do so then.
anyways, hk pics will be up when ive found the time to do so..along with pertapis pics. we finally moved the bunnies out of the home to mun's home cos we jus couldnt bear to see them suffering anymore. first time me visiting a vet..all the way in the heart of toa payoh industrial estate =_=..goddamn ulu place can..heng they were ok. made them a nice little place, cosy and all tat, with tons of fresh veggies and TLC too!
ah well..all in a days work. dont mind work lke this actually cos it doesn't really feel like work. i still think i need a break. brad's back..i've got issues to sort out with him at work..hope i do and say the right thing.. *pray hard*
