Friday, April 13, 2007
x says:
you're stressing yourself out over inconsequential matters
don't talk to you liao
talk to you also makes me depressed
lol
go sort youself out la
but if you think its work that is bogging you down and making you tired
then it really isn't the case
everything that i do is inconsequential..i suppose i could get used to that..
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*inwardly, cowardly*
i still dont understand wat u mean.. the stuff i stress over is inconsequential?
personal stuff? chin up? wtf..
work isnt really the case? work IS the case.. how do i let my personal nonsense affect me when i dont even haf time to think abt my own stuff?
if ppt is inconsequential..training is inconsequential..website is inconsequential..pdts are inconsequential..then u wont be buggin me so often abt it isnt it..
my facial girl asked me today if i was a PA to my boss..buying gifts and all for freakin distributors. din eat til 10plus, courtesy of jas (thanks babe)
i cant bear to leave.. i've made so many frens here..learn alot here too.. comfy where i am.. in fact i do like most of the things i do..
but if i leave its cos i jus wanna do my best for the co..but my best is never good enuff..and tats really kinda tiring..
suppose i was wrong.. maybe i'm the one who doesnt fit the org..despite me thinking i do and can... .. trying to do your best isnt wat is needed i suppose.. cos either way things are changed, unused, discarded, ur effort is just inconsequential.
maybe i take things too seriously, maybe i take things too personally.. but wow.. those words..they sure hurt.. u prob din mean it, maybe u did. and they came out wrong and at a really wrong time.. mabbe u're tired, but so am i?? watever.
i am also a chicken cos i couldnt talk to her abt it face to face.
the worst thing of adopting a F*** it all, i dont give a damn anymore attitude is tat, at the end of the day, i'll still care and give it my (now not so best) shot.
there is something just so wrong about me.
its friday the 13th..beware of black cats, mirrors and ladders. its already a mess as it is.
thinking out loud at 1:33 AM