Sunday, December 16, 2007

i'm upset.

quite so. ok quite a big bit.

i mean i jus wanna like blade and play badminton and squash and jus exercise and dance and wat not but i keep getting into falls and accidents.. like wtf.. is it tat big a request.. why do i keep getting injured.. scraps..cuts..bruises i can deal with.. scar then scar la.. but sprain? dislocate? all right side somemore.. wats next.. fracture?? worse???

so did i bring it on myself? i suppose. serve me right lor.. sick still wanna go blade.. still dun listen and stick to cycling.. i'm kinda angry and frustrated. wat with being sick and all the emotional offloading the past weeks and now tis.. wah lau damn sian la.

actua;;y i dun really noe why i'm so upset. but i am and i jus wanna cry. and actually i dun even noe wat i'm crying about. for me? for those i've been listening to? i duno. mabbe i cant accept the fact tat i have limitations.. serves as a painful reminder tat there is only so much i can do..or cant do in my sad sorry state now. indulge me in these moments of self pity will you?

the cynic says she cant wait for tomorrow..to see wat mishaps will come around.. i know this pales in comparison to alot of other bad things happening to otehr ppl.. so...i guess i sh;d stop whining.

i could use a hug.