Friday, February 22, 2008
the rollercoaster
but ending on a high note thankfully!
so yest was quite a shitty day, a disappointing one tat gave way to irritation and anger as the night came to a close.
wake up! i felt like saying. wake up please?? wont you just??
and i always wondered wat it would be like at that funeral. the people who would attend, the things tat would happen, the way we would be informed, the things tat would be said, endured and in time, forgotten.
you said to be strong, but it is not just about strength, it is also about acceptance, forgiveness, even to the point of emotional detachment. it is piecing back the respect that went amiss, it is about the bonds that bind, either so tightly it suffocates, or so loosely you lose sight of it. you said to cheer up, but it is precisely the moment that engulfs and refuses to let you feel anything but the negativity of it all. you said wats happened has happened, but its knowing things could be prevented, or why no one thot of preventing it in the first place that hurts.
and thus it fell, silently, for all that it was, might be, should be, would be, could be but sadly never to be.
and thus it is kept within, nothing more than a glowing ember of speculation, that just might ignite into a slew of neverending questions that can never be answered.
and thus is life.
and thus for now i shall be glad for the moment that has passed, the moment that is and the moments that will be.
so yest was quite a shitty day, a disappointing one tat gave way to irritation and anger as the night came to a close.
wake up! i felt like saying. wake up please?? wont you just??
and i always wondered wat it would be like at that funeral. the people who would attend, the things tat would happen, the way we would be informed, the things tat would be said, endured and in time, forgotten.
you said to be strong, but it is not just about strength, it is also about acceptance, forgiveness, even to the point of emotional detachment. it is piecing back the respect that went amiss, it is about the bonds that bind, either so tightly it suffocates, or so loosely you lose sight of it. you said to cheer up, but it is precisely the moment that engulfs and refuses to let you feel anything but the negativity of it all. you said wats happened has happened, but its knowing things could be prevented, or why no one thot of preventing it in the first place that hurts.
and thus it fell, silently, for all that it was, might be, should be, would be, could be but sadly never to be.
and thus it is kept within, nothing more than a glowing ember of speculation, that just might ignite into a slew of neverending questions that can never be answered.
and thus is life.
and thus for now i shall be glad for the moment that has passed, the moment that is and the moments that will be.
thinking out loud at 5:31 PM
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