Tuesday, April 15, 2008

as with each time i'm in the tinking/not-quite-right mode, i started the day quiet with a walk to the office.

i jus thot how amazing it was that i laughed so much and so hard last night even tho i was very shaky from some news i heard earlier. i dun tink i've laughed tat much in some time, but thanks to winson&kj i had a ton of laughing gas go right thru my system. (bloody hell i oso got hit on the head by tl's shuttle but i tink the one tat hit kj's head was alot louder. hmm wat did they say about empty vessels ah.. ehheh)

so its no longer monday blues, but tuesday greens. and i count my blessings one by one, big or small, no matter that it took a life (and perhaps many more in the future) to make me more aware of mine.

the point is, even tho death is certain, each and everyone of us will tink and face death at some point to varying degrees. a fren kindly pointed out tat u will tink about death once u purchase ur life insurance. u arent wasting time when u tink about death, not if it helps u put things in perspective n take stock of things tat were. neither is the effort wasted, if after spending some time tinking about death, u realised there's much more to life. afterall, life and death are so closely intertwined u really cant live life without death. life's about avoiding death i suppose?

much as life is a celebration, so should death be. because without death, there cannot be life. we wouldnt go thru much of life's actions, we wont wanna seek meaning, gratification, happiness. having a finite timeline changes many things, and places much meaning and purpose to everything we do for everyday that we exist.

so how can tinking about death and dying possibly be a waste of time and effort? then the life u lead now, is jus a pointless fruitless journey. it is, with our (often hazy) perception of death, that we live, and it is, in the retrospect of life, that we walk towards death. i duno if it makes sense, but.. we are nothing without death.