Tuesday, September 16, 2008

i am startled by today's revelation.

comparatively, i am neither as competitive nor aggressive as many other females out there. to me, winning or losing doesnt have much of an impact on me as i guess it shld. perhaps i'm losing drive, but even amongst friends, i am surprised to realise that I, definitely am one of the least go-getting of the lot.

and there are pros, there are cons.

i tink i used to have it in me. to have that drive, that spur, that streak, that overwhelming urge to want to win, win, win all the time.

and i wonder what happened. cos i am now contented to let others around me win, i like seeing the elation and victory written all over their faces.

pros there are, but the cons would probably outweigh the pros if i were to embark on grad med. it is not sufficient to want to do it, it needs something stronger within, like wanting it so badly in an almost desperate grip.

survival itself is a competition, and it jus gets more heated up with each lap in this track of life we are in. and in each round, more and more get eliminated.

but i tink, at the last lap, the last breath that i can take, all i ask for is happiness and to leave the world with grace. watever competition there was, wouldnt really matter then.