Tuesday, October 21, 2008

i am so broke.

the expenditure has been enormous, especially so this month or so cos of the sheer number of birthdays, mcat books and no thanks to my skin. My poor statement looks rather dismal.

so unhealthy!

and yet there are so many things i want/need! i still havent gotten my dslr/new cam, i need to replenish my supply of mascara/makeup remover/find some real good foundation to cover scars and even out my skin tone cos its still much lighter than the rest of my body, i wanna go for intermediate golf, go pick up a new dance, go for diving (which means learn how to swim @@), pay for mcat itself (god knows how many times i'd have to re-sit), get new basic bottoms cos mine dont really fit very well anymore, i wanna invest in some baking stuff, like a new nifty mixer or ramekins and blah blah the list could go on. oh ya i oso wanna get back to espanol, wat a pity to give it up when i havent even learnt how to curse in that language! did i also mention braces? and a new pair of specs? oh and shades too =0) and holidays!

i'm also facing a time crisis - i dont have time to do all these things! so in addition to a lack of $$, i need more time too! i am so tempted to quit and not work for a few months jus to purely study for mcat and do all that i wanna do and never got around to doing.

but i'm broke and since beggers cant be choosers, i guess i shall shaddup, do my work like i'm paid to, leave whatever dreams and wishes far far aside and just live in the reality of today.