Monday, January 26, 2009

i'm jus abit disappointed at the way things turned out, at the meeting that never was.

with just that bit of regret, i will face the new year, squarely, with resolve and basking in the warmth of life and the bits it brings.


Part of me laughs
Part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why
Why is there pain
Why is there sunshine then the rain

One day you're here
Next you are gone
No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith


kj was reading my fortune just now and said that it was good this year. His precise words, 'in all dangers , there will alwasy be hope. in eeverything u will first experience obstacles, but u will gain fortune because of these obstacles...gain someting good...mabbe not forture ...mabbe other things .. good things ..love life..good'

I was quite surprised, taken aback in fact by how true sh's assessment of me was given that i dont know him that well and dont speak that much to him. i'm also not sure why a particular someone does things they way they do it knowing it shldnt be so, but i'm grateful to the ones who'd deliver knocks and slaps when i need to stay grounded.

i also realised how much i'm a live-the-moment sort; how much 'now' matters to me, when i discovered how 'past' would mostly be hazy and fuzzy images even if it happened just yesterday, whereas i see the present with such clarity because i am now, in the moment. whatever the future has, doesnt matter that much -- it is for me to shape, sculpt and mould however i choose.


Grains of sand, winds of time.
All that matters there and then, is now.