Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Lesson -
i was reminded this morning of a particular lesson my ex-chem tutor mr leong taught me - that the cleanest way of cleaning the floor is still wiping it with a cloth. no mop, no fanciful equipment, jus get down on your knees and wiping the damn floor.

and so i did. and this is surely adding on to the already aching shoulders, arms and legs from badminton and swimming.

i still tink ironing is therapeutic. and i really dont like washing dishes.

but i'll admit, wiping floors spotless is gratifying.


Accomplishment -
so the other day my fren was reminding me not to slack (timely warning and i deserve that - thank you!) and he said i gotta study hard otherwise what would i have accomplished and what have i to show when i get back to work if i dont pass? that got me tinking, and my answer was and will be that, well, i tink i accomplished alot this couple of weeks, even if these are more intangible than results ever will be.

i've spent time with myself, getting out of the negatives that work was putting me under, spent time with family and getting reacquainted with my cousins; din see many of my regular bunch(es) of friends but got back in touch with others i normally wouldnt have; picked up swimming; polished (polishing) up badminton footwork; started reading philosophy (which i and starting to love); familiarised with stuff i hate (physics la wat else) and am sorta getting the hang of it tho not well enuff to do very well in the exam; decided that material things and wealth are really not my priority in life even tho i could really really do with some spare cash now; took time to see hte world slower, closer; watched people and how they interact (dynamics can be so fascinating); discovered that i really learn best when i dont tink too much and just do it; and generally just bits and pieces here and there, that surprise you even if they were normal everyday things you'd failed to notice previously.

these 2 mths of not having any income have proved to be more fulfilling than the last 3yrs at work. and i'm glad i decided to just heck it all and take the leave anyway. even if i dont pass, no regrets, really.

faith -
finally, a lil note to someone, sth i forgot to say last night ^^

life's hard, it really is. so the most impt thing to me right now is to walk this path happily, and willingly going thru watever shit tat comes ur way. all the other nonsense that doesnt leave u feeling like u deserve it or doesnt contribute to future/overall happiness? totally not worth ur time at all. just stick ur toes (esp since ur toe so big, shld be even easier) out of that box confining you, and the rest of the steps will come automatically.

have faith!